tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60565426960982936852024-03-13T00:20:18.614-04:00Searching for StarfishRachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-36758569868205733192015-01-31T23:06:00.002-05:002015-01-31T23:06:56.772-05:00You're not finished with me yet...<span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">Hello out there - it's been a while. More than a year, in fact. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif;">Grad school has a tendency to take over everything, and while I find my work interesting and challenging, it's not the sort of narrative that I feel called to share at this point. In deference to how this blog began, </span><i style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif;">searching for starfish</i><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif;"> means paying attention to my work, and that has meant (and will probably continue to mean) that my posts will be limited.</span><br />
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I never intended to shut this operation down, and I still don't intend to, but the one who invited me to begin blogging is now inviting me deeper inward. In addition to school, which would be plenty to stand in the way of writing, there is this bigger piece, the story I do feel called to share, and that's the part I have a hard time articulating right now. <br />
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I had a professor in undergrad who told us that all we could say about God was that, "God is," and that even that was saying too much. Because every box I try to put God in, God blasts right through it and insists on not being contained. <br />
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We learn in quantum mechanics that confinement leads to quantization, that discreteness arises from containment. God is in everything, refuses to be rationed out, but instead shows up to all of us everywhere. And what does that mean for us? I chew on ideas such as these as I ponder the more "practical" applications of my science.<br />
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And perhaps all that I can say is this:<i> as I continue to show up to my education, I come to know and love a God who first knew and loved me, who has gifted us with a beautifully interesting universe and filled it with beautiful people. </i></div>
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I also wanted to make this hiatus "official" because I know that I will be preparing for my oral exam in the summer. I have to pass this exam in order to qualify for PhD candidacy. If you're a pray-er, I would ask for your prayers this semester and into the summer as I navigate this next part of the journey. </div>
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And know that all of you, wherever you are, you have my prayers, too. </div>
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Peace and all good,<br />
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-19759195531407467152014-01-13T22:19:00.000-05:002014-01-13T22:19:04.409-05:00Never refuse a kindness.At the end of my time at the Welcome Center, the sisters wanted me to tell them what I had learned. I had some ideas, and I shared them, but in the back of my head, I knew that more lessons were coming. The motto of our program, "One year to change a life," carries with it the imperative that the learning never stops.<br />
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Sr. Eileen was my direct supervisor while I worked in Philadelphia. She is a social worker by training, and she is the director of the Welcome Center. She helps people access particular services that they need and walks with people as they navigate new situations. This is her "job description," but what she does every day goes far beyond that. Over the course of my year, I noticed that if anyone offered to help, Sr. Eileen would make sure that there was something for them to do. She is wonderful at inviting people to participate in the ministry of the Welcome Center in whatever way that they are able. <br />
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Moreover, she tried to teach this to me. One day at the Welcome Center, I had a bunch of things that I needed to store while I was at work. We were discussing where they might go, and I was gathering myself to bring them all downstairs. Sr. Eileen offered to help me bring them downstairs, but I was feeling especially independent at that moment, so I told her I would do it. The polite back and forth ensued, and it ended with her saying to me (of something she had learned in her SSJ training), <b>"<u>Never refuse a kindness.</u>"</b><br />
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All of that was rolling around in the recesses of my brain when one of my students from last semester stopped by my office today. We spoke of the upcoming semester, and I told him that I would be teaching freshmen this time around. He offered me his old labs from general chemistry so that I would have a better foundation for grading these students (having the answers and all). <br />
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Neurons fired in my brain at light speed: <i>"it's general chemistry, how hard could it be?" "they give me a rubric, it won't be so difficult" and "I don't really need more things to clutter my desk."</i> All of that was ultimately pushed aside by remembering this: <i>"He wants to help. Let him help you." </i><br />
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Sr. Eileen's words have allowed me to understand something fundamental: people will bring you what they have. Even if it is not what you want or need or expect, accepting what they offer with open and loving arms is the most important thing you can do for them. Welcoming each person as they are lets them know that they matter, and that is a key part of being Christ for others. <br />
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I haven't received these lab reports yet, but when I do, I will be sure to smile and and thank my student. Having those papers will serve to remind me that even if I already know all the chemistry on them, there is still more learning to do.<br />
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I know that it is extremely hard to keep showing up to problems that you don't understand. (It might not be obvious to you, but I struggle plenty with my own coursework. It comes with the territory.) We choose our paths in life (and they choose us), at least in part, because we are good at what we do. For example, as much as I would joke about joining the circus as an undergraduate (which was often), realistically, I would be a terrible fit for the circus. My body doesn't move like that, and I'm not really into animals. But that's beside the point.<br />
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When you start learning science, the path is fairly well traveled. Many people have gone before you, and there is a clear indication of where you ought to go next. <u>Study {science} in college</u>. <b>Learn as much as you can</b>. <i> Do research</i>. <br />
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For a while, people will know the answers to the questions you ask, but as you keep going, the path will branch out and bottleneck. There will be fewer and fewer people who have gone before you, until you find yourself at the edge of science.</div>
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I have a great deal of admiration for Robert Frost, but this letter is not about the "road not taken." Research is about the road that doesn't exist yet. When we reach the end of the path we are on, we must keep building the road and connect it to other roads. A road isn't as profitable if it dead ends; the major thoroughfares are what everyone wants to be responsible for creating. Sometimes this is easy, and sometimes, it isn't. </div>
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Even the best scientists won't know exactly what will happen next, 100% of the time (heck, even quantum mechanics will only give you probabilities!). The soil that you will build on may be clay, or shale, or full of sand. The problem might seem overwhelmingly simple at the outset, but complications may prolong completion. The alternative may come to pass: it could begin as a huge mess that simplifies drastically as you proceed. Most of what you do will be, I hope, somewhere in the middle. Not understanding how to get to the endpoint right away doesn't make you a bad scientist. Choosing not to understand, however, means that you will never get any further than you already are. </div>
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My job is to help you get comfortable with building those roads, to practice troubleshooting. To develop your scientific intuition. To embrace Murphy's Law as the fifth Gospel, and then to move beyond it. <br />
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This class is just as important as other, more "relevant," classes that you'll take. Here is why: this class is helping you to be more comfortable making connections between things you know and things you don't know. That is the general idea behind all that you will do in research. You learn about the world, and you use what you already know to draw conclusions about what you don't yet understand. And then you see what happens. </div>
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You have a person with only marginally better "eyesight" leading you through all of this. It is non-trivial to show up to your own education and say, "this is going to be hard, but I am going to learn something from this, and that knowledge motivates me to keep on keeping on." That attitude is precisely what binds me, covalently, to my education. I might get excited by stray photons, but, as we recently learned in lecture, there are a number of ways to relax to the ground state. And, as one of my professors in undergrad told us (about tunneling and bound states): you always get out eventually. <br />
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With respect and best wishes,<br />
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-69497996636579505172013-11-13T19:43:00.000-05:002013-11-13T19:43:22.793-05:00A chip off an old block...When I first moved to Philadelphia, we didn't have a coffee pot. I didn't mind, because I wasn't in the habit of drinking coffee, but one of my housemates was all about coffee. We bought instant coffee to tide her over until we could obtain a coffee pot, which happened relatively quickly. Thus, we had a lot of leftover instant coffee. What to do?<div>
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That general idea (having things and needing to re-purpose them just a little, with somewhat limited resources) resulted in the following recipe, adapted from <a href="http://www.bettycrocker.com/recipes/cafe-coffee-cookies/ef07cbb1-9ef0-405d-99eb-3b4a11b916b0" target="_blank">this recipe</a>. The feedback has been overwhelmingly positive in both Philadelphia and Rochester, so I thought I would share it with y'all. Since this isn't a food blog, I don't have pictures like the real dedicated folk. Sorry! I will try to be as clear as possible. =)</div>
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<u><i>Rachel's Cafe Cookies</i></u> </div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">1. Preheat oven to 350<span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">°. </span>Cream the brown sugar and butter in a large bowl until the mixture is homogeneous, then add the eggs. If desired, add vanilla.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">2. In a separate bowl, combine the dry ingredients (except the oatmeal and the chocolate chips). Mix well, and then add to the butter sugar </span>mixture. Sometimes I've been able to do this with my hands, and other times I have to use a large fork because the batter is too sticky. This is correlated with the addition of vanilla (no vanilla, less sticky), but I am not convinced that there is an underlying causation there. Just something I've observed. </div>
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3. If the dough is sticky, chill in the fridge for about half an hour. Drop about 1/8 cup dough rolled into a ball, onto a greased cookie sheet, about two inches apart (you should be able to get a dozen on there without trouble from spreading). Bake about 10 minutes, until the bottoms are golden brown. I personally go for chewier cookies, so if you're looking for a crunchier cookie, you're looking at 11 or 12 minutes. There is some variation in ovens, so I would watch the first batch and go from there. </div>
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That's all for now from this corner of cyberspace. I hope that everyone out there is well and staying warm!</div>
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-59044603597104042092013-09-21T13:02:00.000-04:002013-09-21T13:02:39.143-04:00Those who can, teach.<span style="font-family: inherit;">The coolest thing happened the other day in the lab that I teach. One of my students was two hours late (this is not meant to be sarcastic, but I have to tell you this so you understand the rest of the story). Because she was so late, her lab partner began the lab without her. He was a bit nervous about having been cast off on his own, but as the TA, I tried to help him as best as I could. </span><br />
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-69064308140813282592013-09-15T20:38:00.000-04:002013-09-15T20:38:14.997-04:00I suggest this is the best part of your life...I have been hanging out in this corner of cyberspace for far too long without making a peep, and the longer I stay silent, the easier it is to stay silent. <br />
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I moved back to New York in the middle of July after a wonderfully fruitful year with the Sisters of St. Joseph of Philadelphia. My time as a volunteer, both in <a href="http://www.ssjmissioncorps.org/" target="_blank">Philadelphia</a> and in <a href="http://www.franciscanvolunteerministry.org/" target="_blank">Camden</a>, continues to inform my worldview as I transition into this next chapter. <br />
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During my short vacation, I was able to go to Chicago, where I spent several days at a conference, <a href="http://www.catholicsoncall.org/" target="_blank">Catholics on Call</a>. About 45 twenty-something Catholic young adults gathered from all over the US (and even one person was from Canada!). It was a phenomenal way to process all that has been on my heart these past two years. There were several presentations, but for me the most fruitful part was hearing the stories of other young adults, just like me. <br />
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Soon after Catholics on Call, I moved out to Rochester, where I have begun school at <a href="http://www.rochester.edu/" target="_blank">U of R</a>. I love being back in school. It's a ton of work, for sure, especially as I ramp up my math skills. I have made some truly silly mistakes as I slowly un-bury all the things that I used to know, but it is fun, and I love that I get to be doing it.<br />
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I live with seven others: four Sisters of St. Joseph of Rochester and three volunteers. Two of the sisters are nurses by training, and one of the volunteers just graduated in Biology. It's fabulous. <br />
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Looking back through my journals from my senior year of college, I was reminded of all the support that I had as I prepared to head off into a next step that was so far removed from all that I had done. As grateful as I hope that I was then, I am even more grateful now for that support. To be back in school, for me, is more than just a continuation of an idea that grew and grew throughout my college years. It is the way that I feel I can honor all that I experienced in my two years of service. <br />
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I'll leave you with the song that's been in my head of late...<br />
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Peace and all good,<br />Rachel<br />
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<br />Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-73442135876228418172013-05-14T18:32:00.000-04:002013-05-14T18:32:20.938-04:00Can Anything Good Come From Nazareth?I had all sorts of dazzling words in my back pocket, but in the end, after being off the grid for so long, these are all I can muster:<br />
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This August, I will move to Rochester, NY to pursue a PhD in Chemistry at the University of Rochester. <br />
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These past two years of service have been full of grace, and, with only a few days before I am to see my brother graduate from Le Moyne, I know that I am ready to make this next jump.<br />
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In an email that I wrote just the other day, I noted that, "I don't have any kind of certainty, but God has never wanted that, just my openness and my courage to come and see what good things can come from Nazareth."*<br />
*For more on this reference, click <a href="http://www.crosswalk.com/blogs/dr-ray-pritchard/nazareth-can-anything-good-come-from-there.html" target="_blank">here</a>!<br />
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There are many "Nazareths" in my life, but I have found time and again that good things can and do come from these places, if I look for them. The goodness can be found in the midst of a reality that holds sorrow, joy, awe with the same set of hands, and all of those things only serve to make it sweeter. <br />
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More to come. I hope that you readers are all well, wherever you may find yourselves. <br />
<br />Peace and all good,<br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Much has happened, but for now I will leave you with the article I have written for the upcoming newsletter for the Welcome Center, where I work. It's the story that spawned this <a href="http://rachelsearchingforstarfish.blogspot.com/2012/11/my-first-official-blog-endorsement-for.html" target="_blank">post</a> in November.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">My afternoons at the Welcome Center are busy and varied; I play "office manager," "lesson planner," "tutor" and "photocopy maker" on a daily basis, while also always trying to be "ready for any good work." </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">With my desk in the reception area, I am often the greeter of many of our dear neighbors.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">One afternoon in November, Edona arrived at the Center directly from her job as a cafeteria worker for </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">a local school. I had only met her once or twice before, but I knew that she had been one of our dear neighbors </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">for quite some time. That day, she had a velvet carpet bag for a purse, which carried her money, three pears for </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">her lunch, and some other sundry items.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"Thank you very much, Edona, but I have a bag." I pulled my own purse out from under my desk, as if </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">my word wasn't enough to prove that I did not need the bag.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Edona would not be dissuaded. The whole scenario had reached the point where it was no longer going </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">to take a polite declination of her offering to stop her from giving me that bag. She had turned it inside out and </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">was picking crumbs out of it. I stood in the reception area, thoroughly mortified. In my mind, I was stealing. I </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">had a bag already, and I had another at home, and I could get a bag if I really needed one.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">That following Sunday, sitting in church, I heard again the story of the widow who gave all she had. In </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">his homily, the priest recounted a story that he had been told about Mother Teresa. One day, she encountered a </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">beggar who knew of her great works. He wanted to give Mother Teresa his whole day's earnings, about thirty </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">cents. For that man, thirty cents was everything. It meant that he might be able to eat that day. Giving it away </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">meant that he would spend another day hungry. For Mother Teresa, thirty cents was hardly any money. It </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">wouldn't buy much. Taking that man's money, however, meant that he could earn back some of his dignity by </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">feeling connected to her mission.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mother Teresa took that man's daily bread, and I took Edona's carpet bag. They each offered freely all </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">that they had, and doing justice meant accepting them, as they were.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">That bag is a constant reminder to look deeper. I recall stories of people with bottomless bags (Mary </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Poppins and Hermione Granger come to mind), and I know that my heart must be like that bag, bottomless, </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">open, and freely given.</span><br />
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<br />Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-68770139789830250992012-11-14T22:14:00.002-05:002012-11-14T22:14:43.802-05:00Look beyond the bread you eat...Last night, after a long day of classes and tutoring, I came upon Maria, one of Sr. Pat's students. She and Sr. Pat were talking about how Gabi, Maria's seven year-old daughter, loves the ham at the Welcome Center.<br />
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"Do you want a sandwich for Gabi?" Sr. Pat offered.<br />
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"Yes, thank you," Maria replied.<br />
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"I'll make it," I piped in. I walked over to the bread drawer. There were sandwich thins, oat nut bread, and rye bread. <br />
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I have never developed a taste for rye bread, perhaps because it was
introduced late enough in my life that I never felt "accustomed" to it.
I trained myself to prefer whole wheat bread and other, "healthier"
alternatives to white bread, but rye bread hasn't stuck.<br />
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As such, I couldn't imagine any seven year old wanting a sandwich made of rye bread. <br />
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<i>The potato bread was all the way upstairs. </i>And okay, it sounds lame to me now, but I in that moment, I was willing to let anything be an obstacle.<br />
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I seriously considered making the sandwich with one of the alternatives. I couldn't see Gabi wanting any of them, though. Some seven year-olds don't even eat the crusts on their bread; if I handed her a sandwich with oat and nut pieces in it, I could envision her handing it back to me. <br />
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It's fairly simple to predict the inclinations of a seven year old girl. Extrapolating beyond that, for extra people or for different situations, becomes more complicated with each additional layer. How can you know what someone would want?<br />
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<u>The heuristic approximation is sympathy.</u><br />
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*****<br />
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In December of 2010, as a senior in college, I was bagging Christmas presents at the <a href="http://www.stfrancisinn.org/" target="_blank">St. Francis Inn</a>. All of the bags that I had were too small for this box, a present for a young boy that was a guest there. Completely baffled, truly, I presented this dilemma to the volunteer who was supervising me, Kelly. <br />
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"What would you want?" That was her answer, or something similarly sassy.* <br />
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The implication was that, <b>obviously</b>, <u>I had to find a bigger bag</u>. <i> </i><br />
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<i>Would I want a present half sticking out of the bag, not in the least bit surprising to its recipient? If I were giving this present to someone, what would I want it to look like? </i><br />
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Kelly's question challenged me to look beyond the act itself toward the way in which the act was performed. By doing this, instead of being an act of responsibility, it becomes an act of love, a demonstration of concern for the person on the receiving end.<br />
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*****<br />
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I walked upstairs and grabbed the potato bread to make Gabi's sandwich. <br />
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It could have been nothing, but it was everything. <br />
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*(Side note: I love Kelly, and I love her sass. I know she is channeling it wonderfully in her fourth grade classroom!)Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-80473386706678694522012-11-07T22:50:00.002-05:002012-11-07T22:50:38.191-05:00My first official blog endorsement for John Flynn.<span style="font-family: inherit;">I wrote the following poem/lyric in January of this year after seeing John Flynn perform live in Philadelphia. I was moved by the caliber and artistry of his stories, and used that inspiration to channel my own experiences into this bit of writing. I came back to it today after an encounter that left me without any words but these. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Also, this is my plug for John Flynn. I think he's phenomenal. But you can judge for yourself.<br /><a href="http://www.johnflynn.net/">http://www.johnflynn.net/</a><br /><br /><br />"Two Coins"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Two
coins.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">That
was all she had,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">all
she could afford,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">and
as they fell out from her hands,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">she
said a prayer to her lord.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"I’m
asking for tomorrow.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">You’ve
blessed me with today.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I
don’t need much of anything,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">just
extended stay.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I’ve
got so much to finish here.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Please
help me see it through.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Whatever
is your will for me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">is
what I will to you."<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I
took the silver coins she gave<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">and
held them in my hand.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">It
wasn't much, but it would buy<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">her
way into the promised land,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">and
as she gazed into my eyes,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I
memorized her face,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">for
never had a clearer picture<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">been
given me of grace.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"I’m asking for tomorrow.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">You’ve blessed me with today.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I don’t need much of anything,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">just extended stay.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I’ve got so much to finish here.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Please help me see it through.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Whatever is your will for me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">is what I will to you."</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I
hoard the much that I’ve been given.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">She
gave all she could afford.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">At
night on bended knee,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I
whisper this prayer to my lord:<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Please
teach me her example<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">each
and every day.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">The
love she has is all she needs.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Don’t
take her soul away.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I’ve
got so much to learn from her.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">She’s
teaching me to do<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">whatever
is your will for me.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">That’s
what I will to you.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-11436454474378237462012-10-31T23:09:00.001-04:002012-10-31T23:09:14.394-04:00Won't you be my dear neighbor?My Facebook newsfeed has been filled with pictures and statuses about Hurricane Sandy, of late. Living in Philadelphia, my community and I were in the middle of the storm, certainly, but we were very blessed to not have much to show for it. <br />
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We lost power for about fifteen hours, and most of that was during the night, when we slept. We had a roof over our heads and four walls to protect us from the wind and rain. We didn't lose any of our food, because we were able to bring it to the Welcome Center, where I work, and we had warm pancakes for lunch on Tuesday with the sisters who live there. <br />
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Among all of the political mudslinging and meteorology-mania, I found this quote in a Facebook post:<br />
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“Never worry about numbers. Help one person at a time and always start with the person nearest you.”<br />
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― Mother Teresa<br />
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When I began contemplating a year of service, I was ready to go to the ends of the earth, convinced that the more removed from East Greenbush, New York, I was, the more I would learn, and the more meaningful my service would be. <br />
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Relative to Ecuador and Kenya, Philadelphia and Camden are both practically next to East Greenbush, and they are near to each other (the Ben Franklin Bridge connects the two cities, and it's only five dollars to go from NJ to PA). <br />
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I can't compare my real service experiences to hypothetical ones in a meaningful way, but I will say that I have been challenged to grow and learn in so many ways, and I wouldn't trade them for anything. <br />
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The people that have been nearest to me this past year and a half are some of the most strong, hardworking, courageous, and loving people that I have ever been blessed to encounter. <br />
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With my neighborhood faring rather well, all things considered, and both Monday and Tuesday off of work, I found myself with much time to think. I spent that time remembering the many friends and acquaintances that I knew were suffering more deeply because of the storm. They held some of my attention, but another storm captured my attention, too.<br />
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<i>Katrina. </i><br />
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I've never been to New Orleans. <u>I have many friends who have gone and done beautiful work there</u>, and I think I would love to go, too. One day, I hope.<br />
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Katrina made her visit to New Orleans seven years ago, in a record-breaking hurricane season that brought devastation to so many. Just like Sandy has. <br />
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Seven years later, people are still going down to NOLA, providing help when they can, and that's awesome. No sarcasm intended. I really think that individual people and groups are doing as much as they can.<br />
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<b>That's why I am here, in Philadelphia, right now.</b> I am doing as much as I can for the people nearest to me.<br />
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I'm curious to see how long it will take for the northeast to recover from Sandy. I hope and pray that it won't be seven years, or seven months, or even seven weeks.<br />
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I ask myself, <i>"Is that long?"</i> That depends on who you're asking. <br />
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The St. Francis Inn is a soup kitchen in my neighborhood, and they served a meal yesterday despite being without power at least two hours before the meal was scheduled to begin. I don't know what they served, but I do know that whoever braved the storm to come eat must have been hungry and grateful, even if their demeanor didn't reflect it. I know some guests by name who have relied on that support for years.<br />
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Ask Diane, who just had her fourth child, what she would do for seven weeks if she couldn't rely on the support of the Inn to feed her growing family. <br />
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Or, if my own ministry, the Welcome Center, what if we just shut down for several weeks? We work with immigrants, helping them to become citizens, and whatever your position is on immigration, let me say this: the people I meet every day aren't trying to play the system, they are trying to not get played by the system. <br />
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I meet with a woman on Mondays to practice for her citizenship interview, and she is one of the most faithful of all of my students. Every Monday, at 1:30, we practice speaking and writing, answering over and over the questions she'll need to know in that interview room. The charm of her self-effacing laugh diffuses each moment that I've managed to not sufficiently communicate a point to her, again, as if it's somehow her fault.<br />
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These are the people who I am nearest to and people who I have come to know and love. They are no more or less important than those in South America, Africa, and other parts of the USA, but in my own reality, they are my world.<br />
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I doubt I'll get to New Orleans or New York any time soon.<br />
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I have English classes to teach.<br />
Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-31717714006131009322012-10-09T22:41:00.002-04:002012-10-09T22:41:24.405-04:00...every heart to love will come, but like a refugee...<i>Be still and know that I am God.</i><br />
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<i>Be still and know that I am.</i><br />
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<i>Be still and know.</i><br />
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<i>Be still. </i><br />
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<i>Be.</i><br />
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Thus began our community prayer last night.<br />
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It was not the first time I'd heard this meditation before; it found me at Le Moyne, and later it found me during my year as a Franciscan Volunteer. And now as an SSJ Mission Corps Volunteer, it continues to follow me.<br />
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I resisted every bit of this prayer. My mind did jumping jacks and cartwheels; my heart kicked and screamed all the way though the moments of silence.<br />
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For me, this prayer always calls to mind the difference between the worldview I was given and the worldview I am slowly gaining. God, who could be so loving, must certainly be able to do something about all of this suffering, all of this brokenness that I encounter every day.<br />
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Somewhere between the second and third line of this meditation, I was able to step outside of my own inner tantrum and picture myself. I was flailing violently, as a small child in the throes of anguish, certain that she had just been slighted and appalled at the injustice of it all. <br />
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As I maintained my mental outburst, I saw myself comforted, held in the arms of that same loving God that I was cursing. I kept kicking, screaming, crying, and God never let go.<br />
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God was telling me exactly what to do, offering exactly what I required, but those things were presented in a way that made me uncomfortable. I didn't want to stop fighting, because I was not convinced that anything would come of the stopping.<br />
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This the same counter-intuitive block that I have toward taking some free time before I have finished everything on my to-do list: I feel like I am wasting time when I could be finishing this one thing, or this other thing. I don't know where the research is that disproves my beliefs, but I know there is some out there, and despite that, I hold fast to my entirely flawed convictions. The invitation remains:<br />
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<i>Be still and know that I am God.</i><br />
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All the tools are there, all of the things that I need are right in front of me, though it might not appear that way. I just have to take the time to look at them and assume the responsibility for them.<br />
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There's a story, which I have heard many variations of, where the main character sees some sort of injustice, becomes upset, and asks God what he is going to do about it. In all of the permutations, the reply from God is the same:<br />
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<b>"I did do something. I made YOU!" </b><br />
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<i>Why is the world like this and not how I thought it would be? </i><br />
<i>What are you going to do about it? </i><br />
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<b>I made you.</b><br />
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<i>But I am not strong enough, brave enough, prepared enough...</i><br />
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And then I hear the response. It's not an answer, but somewhere in there is a promise that if I do what I am told, I will figure out what I am supposed to do next. <br />
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<i>Be still and know that I am God.</i><br />
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<i>Be still and know that I am.</i><br />
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<i>Be still and know.</i><br />
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<i>Be still. </i><br />
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<i>Be.</i><br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ma5tF6TJpA">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ma5tF6TJpA</a>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-44788279097176027292012-10-08T00:25:00.001-04:002012-10-08T00:25:51.058-04:00tell yourself...how lucky you are!A while back, someone told me that typically, people graduate college, get a job, and ultimately face the fact that the real world is quite different from college. <div>
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I, however, was so very wrapped up in my new volunteer life (which is both like and unlike the "real" world to which I referred) that I had forgotten to do that, until now. </div>
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Today, on a cold, rainy, fall afternoon (one of my favorite kinds of days), all that I wanted to do was to go curl up somewhere cozy and journal, with some hot tea. My only stipulation was that I needed to leave my living space.</div>
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At Le Moyne, that space would have been my room, and I could have happily gone to the lounge, or to the library, or to a friend's place, and I would have walked there. </div>
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In Philadelphia, there are not random "lounges" where one can sit for extended periods of time indoors without attracting undue attention to oneself. Or, if there are, I haven't found them yet (there is a "Memberz Only Lounge" - spelled just like that on the sign - near our house, but I don't think that's what I am going for). The Philadelphia Free Library has 54 branches, but only one branch is open on Sundays, from 1:00 pm to 5:00 pm. And I don't have twenty-five peers at my disposal to entertain and to be entertained by. </div>
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I ended up crouched on the floor of the Barnes and Noble in Rittenhouse Square, no tea, for a couple of hours. My bum was a bit sore, but I did feel good at the end of all of it, truly. </div>
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In having gone to Barnes and Noble, I am more fully able to appreciate my house for what it is. In leaving Le Moyne, I have come to cherish my alma mater even more.</div>
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I tried the best I could to appreciate Le Moyne for what it taught me and brought out in me, and some days, I did better than others. Last fall, however, when I visited campus and was walking around at night, I relished ever more profoundly the kind of privilege I was exercising. </div>
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Only at Le Moyne could I walk back from the Science Center to Harrison Hall at 2:00 am by myself without thinking twice about my safety (although in retrospect, that was not one of my better life choices - the late night walking alone part). </div>
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Only at Le Moyne could I sit in the Den and read or write without having to buy anything. </div>
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Only at Le Moyne is the library open for more than four hours on a Sunday. </div>
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<b>BUT!</b></div>
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Both at Le Moyne and in Kensington, I have been able to come to know many wonderfully fabulous people.</div>
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Both at Le Moyne and in Kensington, I have been challenged to grow in ways that I never thought possible. </div>
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Both at Le Moyne and in Kensington, I have been given the opportunity to learn so much, in traditional and extraordinary ways.</div>
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Both at Le Moyne and in Kensington, there is overwhelming beauty, if you look for it. And I don't mean pretty scenery, I mean <b style="text-decoration: underline;">bursting-and-radiating-from-the-cracks-in-the-pavement beautiful.</b> </div>
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<i>And one day, I'll miss Kensington as deeply as I miss Le Moyne. </i> </div>
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-39688442987950600082012-10-04T17:31:00.004-04:002012-10-04T17:31:34.386-04:00This one's for the teachers.I only continue to appreciate the <b>many wonderful teachers that have graced my life</b> now that I am trying to teach my own class.<br />
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Somewhere, along the line, I figured out that<u> being a good teacher implied a degree of entertainment</u>. People are far more likely to remember something if you make it memorable. <br />
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<i>I learned this from an English teacher who hopped across the room pretending to be a spider, from a coach with more spirit in her left pinky-finger than most people have in their whole body, and from a physics professor who threw things (both accidentally and on purpose) and occasionally put his own safety in jeopardy, among others. </i><br />
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On Tuesday, in my own attempt to be a good teacher, I took off my shoe and then waved my hand in front of my face (and made the stinky feet face), just to show my beginner class what a shoe was (and keep them captivated). They laughed, so at least I knew that they were paying attention. <br />
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And thus, one of my mantras continues to be: <u>check your dignity at the door.</u> <br />
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<b>I dance around the classroom, I sing, I jump, I do whatever I can to make sure I know that they are internalizing the things that I offer to them. </b> I can't joke with words;<i> that is the exact reason I have these students to begin with: they don't understand the English language. </i><br />
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I repeat over and over small phrases such as "what is it?" and "it's a pencil" with the hope that by June, I won't have to wave a card in their face with the words on it. <b>Their responses will be as natural as me dancing around the classroom</b> (which is actually pretty natural, believe it or not). <br />
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Thus, I enter the classroom every Tuesday and Thursday night, ready to be laughed at.<br />
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Tonight, those same beginners are playing Bingo for brownies, a reward for all of the time spent thus far repeating the same questions over and over, with me hoping that I won't have to explain what they mean or how to answer them, again. Amid the fun, they will actually have to practice knowing their numbers, and the jury's still out on how that will go. <br />
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I've never thought otherwise, but I want to go on record as having said: <u>teaching is not easy, but it can be really fun. </u><br />
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Even if I have to smell my own stinky shoes.<br />
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Peace and all good,<br />RachelRachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-80466401938174868432012-09-22T14:57:00.000-04:002012-09-22T14:57:42.033-04:00To be happy...I signed up for this year, expecting full well that I would be teaching adults, and I am. <br />
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There are, however, several children that come in and out of my life at the Welcome Center, and one in particular, of late. <br />
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Manny is five, and he only started Kindergarten on Wednesday, so he's made quite a few appearances at the Welcome Center. Last week, Sr. Pat and I took Manny to the library, and as we picked him up, he told us that the woman who had been watching Manny and her own son, "They made me angry!" <br />
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"Why?" we both inquired. <br />
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"Because they made me angry." Five year old logic, of course. We told Manny that he was too young to be that angry, and he said, "Okay," in this blind acceptance and gleeful sort of stupor. He always says "okay" that way. It sounds like sedated joy, and it makes me laugh every time. <br />
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"Why are you laughing at me?" Manny demanded. <br />
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"I'm not laughing at you," I assure him. "I'm laughing because I want you to laugh, too!"<br />
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And it's true. I want him to be happy. I said to him, "I want you to be happy all the time," and then I retracted the last bit by saying, "well, most of it." <br />
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If we're happy all the time, then we are blind to the realities around us.<br />
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If we are constantly satisfied, then we fail to realize the value of the things we have.<br />
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If we never have to wait for anything, we can't appreciate the time that has been spent so that we don't have to wait. <br />
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It's a constant tightrope dance for me. I want to have a true picture of reality, and the truer it becomes, the heavier it becomes. I've heard myself say, over and over, "I want you to tell me, I can handle it." I have also been on the side that thinks that love is to protect the ones you care about by shading their reality for them. <br />
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When I was on my silent retreat in August, Fr. Ned told us that, in this world, there was always suffering, but the difference was that, in Christianity, we are invited to embrace that suffering. I haven't come to a conclusion about how I feel as far as whether or not God "ordains" the painful pieces of our lives, but I know this: without the cross, there is no redemption. Without something having gone awry, there is nothing to straighten out. <br />
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But Manny's only five. <br />
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He's still learning.<br />
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It's times like these time and time again.<br />~ Foo Fighters, "Times Like These"</div>
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I spent the majority of my afternoon half carefully, half carelessly, placing labels on envelopes for newsletters. I thought absentmindedly about who would get them, and I paid a measure (but certainly not a full one) of attention to my two charges, Maria, who is learning French, and Nhi, who was working on an assignment about St. Thérèse of Lisieux. I rushed through those envelopes so that I could run to the library, where a movie and two books were wating for me.<br />
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As it turns out, they are still there, because I rushed through reading the directions and made a wrong turn. When I arrived to the library, it had closed minutes before. All of that rushing, and if I had only stopped to pay a speck of attention, I would have known that the library was closing.<br />
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I returned, tail between my legs, to an empty office. I had a couple of things to read and send out before returning home.<br />
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The doorbell rang, but, even though I had told Nancy that I didn't mind being in the office alone, I hadn't any intention of opening the door and occasioning any potential trouble.<br />
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I continued my reading in the hope that the man at the door would give up. Not very Christ-like, I know. <br />
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At least four times more he rang the doorbell, a plea to be heard.<br />
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An extended period of silence lulled me into a false sense of security: maybe he's gone...<br />
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But then, the doorbell. A high pitch, followed by a low pitch.<br />
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Whatever this man needed, he would not be ignored, so I opened the door.<br />
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"Is Sr. Pat or Sr. Eileen here?"<br />
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No, they aren't. They just took Colleen up to the novitiate. They won't be back tonight.<br />
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But I still don't know this man, so I put up the yellow caution tape.<br />
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"They can't speak with you right now; is there something I can help you with?"<br />
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"I need them to help me with some papers," I thought I heard. "Can I come back tomorrow at this time?"<br />
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"Can you come in the morning?" I offered, knowing that the sisters would be here, and that if he came tomorrow at this time, he would be interrupting their dinner.<br />
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"I work in the morning," he said, "but I can come in the evening."<br />
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We settled on an evening time, and I knew that the sisters would be there to greet this man, whose name I learned to be Antonio.<br />
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Before he left, he offered me the bag in his hand, for the sisters. "It's going to go bad," he said. It was some sort of cake.<br />
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As I closed the door, I was humbled by his persistence, his care, and his gratitude.<br />
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The story that has followed me, of late, is that of the Canaanite woman (Gospel of Matthew). At this point in the Gospel, Jesus has been traveling and he has been trying so hard to stay out of the limelight for just a little while. His notoriety cannot be quenched, however, and he is approached by an outsider, this Canaanite woman, with a request to heal her daughter.<br />
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Jesus replies to her that it is not fair to take the children's bread and feed it to the dogs. Jesus hung with the outcasts, for sure, but this woman, a Canaanite, was outside of those "outsiders."<br />
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"...even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the Master's table," she counters. I might not be in your circle, but I matter, she implies.<br />
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Jesus praises her faith, and heals her daughter. <br />
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All I could do was stand there, both awed and dumbfounded, and tell Antonio to come back tomorrow. <br />
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Lesson <strike>learned</strike> still learning. Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-11947427575771256462012-09-15T21:05:00.000-04:002012-09-15T21:05:02.876-04:00Home is a verb.Last night, I dreamt of the wonderful faces of St. Anthony's School, a place where magic continues to happen every day. I know this to be true because there were a number of <b>magic wands</b> that poked and prodded at me all year until, finally, <i>my toughened exterior broke open.</i> <br />
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It is little more than magic and grace that presents to you the me that is now in Philadelphia.<br />
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For years, God has been trying to get me to Philadelphia. <u>Most of my life, actually.</u> It started when I was in grade school, and my mother was offered a transfer to Philadelphia with her company, which she turned down to stay in East Greenbush. It continued with my mother's prodding to "go to Siena," which I promptly dismissed, since Siena was too close to home. At Le Moyne, I was swirled into the wonder of the St. Francis Inn, which led me to FVM, and ultimately, to Camden.<br />
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<i>And Camden was just enough to get me here.</i><br />
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If I watch carefully out the window of the elevated train, I can see bits of the Camden skyline during my commute to and from the Welcome Center. While it's not St. Anthony of Padua Parish and School, it still reminds me of a place that I have learned to forever call home.<br />
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About a year and a half ago, I crafted a blessing that included the following: "May you remember that home is not an address, but a place in your heart for the family you are given and the family you choose."<br />
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The other day, though, reflecting on home, I remembered something that completely snow-globed my understanding of the word: <b>home is a verb.</b> </div>
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Definition number twenty on dictionary.com for the word home: to go or return home. And number twenty-two: to navigate toward a point by means of coordinates other than those given by altitude. </div>
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<i>I home</i> is not just a cool piece of technology that will charge your iPod and wake you up in the morning. It means that I am moving toward a point, toward my home. Which, by my own definition, is a place in my heart. </div>
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Perhaps the definition is a tad redundant, but the meaning is what matters. </div>
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The part that naturally becomes frustrating is that the coordinates I am getting are not taking me right there. I must, necessarily, travel to points other than home, because (and pardon how cliche I am going to sound, please) the journey is what will allow me to experience home when I finally arrive, and it will also be the arrival. </div>
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Rosa, one of my co-workers at the Welcome Center, told me yesterday that they feel as though I have been here for five months, even though it's only been about two or three work weeks. <i>It is as if the spot existed for me this whole time and they were just waiting for me to come and fill it. </i></div>
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-89573243969844462612012-09-09T17:24:00.001-04:002012-09-09T17:24:14.961-04:00Standing out in a crowd...I have been living in Kensington now for three weeks. I continue to confront the reality that whether I live here for three months, three years, or three lifetimes, <i>I will always be an outsider.</i><br />
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<u>My safety net is too strong.</u><br />
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I am a Caucasian female who was born in the suburbs and got an education that many of the people I encounter on a daily basis never even had the option to choose or reject. <b>The color of my skin and the knowledge in my brain cannot be taken away from me.</b> There is power in that that I am only beginning to understand. <br />
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I am currently part of a volunteer program that supports me financially and spiritually, and while our director claims that we live below the "official" poverty line, <i>I will never be living in economic poverty the way that I see it played out by my "dear neighbors."</i> <br />
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I will always have enough nutritious food to eat. <b>For me, it will not be a question of where my next meal comes from, but when will I go to the store, and what will I buy when I get there.</b> Knowing that I will be supported in this way allows me to use the knowledge that I have accumulated to buy food that will nourish me, and not merely fill me up. <br />
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I will always have a roof over my head, heat in my house, and clothes to wear. I am fortunate enough to have a washer and dryer in my basement <u><b>AND</b></u> a washer and dryer that I can use at work, both free of charge. <br />
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I have a transit pass that allows me to take the elevated train to and from work every day. I am able to ride to work in the safety of mass transit. Since the pass is for unlimited travel, <i>I am also able to leave Kensington</i>, at no additional cost, and find solace in the comfort of a small park or bookshop. <br />
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<u>I will always be an outsider because I will always have an out.</u><br />
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I have many people in my life who care about my well being and about the path that I have chosen. Those people support me as <b>I make the conscious choice to live this way</b>, even though I might have gotten a job that paid much more, or I might have gone to school, ultimately for the same end result. <br />
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Some of those same people would support me if threads in my net began tearing. Many people here in Kensington don't always have the means to do so for the people that they love, no matter how much they want hold each other up in that same way.<br />
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This is the SSJ Mission Corps pledge: <u>give us one year of your life, and we will give you a better understanding of yourself, your neighbor and God.</u> I came into this year regarding it the way I regarded the promise made by my Jesuit education (that I would be made a woman for others): <b>skeptically.</b><br />
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Here I am, living the truth and reality of both. I am a woman, for others, who is learning by experience the value of what it means to be in relationship with my neighbor in a direct way. And I am trying to find God in all of it. <br />
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Slowly, but surely.<br />
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<i>This race was never to the swift.</i><br />
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Peace and all good,<br />RachelRachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-57708443561188179882012-09-01T23:42:00.000-04:002012-09-01T23:42:05.783-04:00This is *reality* Greg!Readers, beware! The title is meant to be a humorous foray into a heavier subject. To get the joke, you have to know only two bits of context. The first is that my father's nickname is Greg (which in no way resembles his actual name, but that's another story for another time). The second is that the line is from E.T., near the end, when Elliot is getting one of his older brother's friends to help bring back E.T.<br />
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Elliot: He's a man from outer space and we're taking him to his spaceship.<br />
Greg: Well, can't he just beam up?<br />
Elliot: This is *reality*, Greg!<br />
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How does that relate to my day, you're probably wondering. I hope you are at least wondering that now. <br />
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Well, my father and my mother both came to Kensington today with the remainder of the things I was not able to bring on the train when I moved down here. <br />
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They told me that when they arrived, before I was able to swoop down and collect them from outside, that they had seen two men shooting up down the street. I would imagine it was heroin, but honestly, I don't know anything about drugs. It's the only one I am sure involves a syringe. At any rate, they were doing well, all things considered, but I could tell that any one of a few thoughts were running through their mind.<br />
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- This place is more dangerous than the place we left her last time.<br />
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- (My father) I left the city so that my kids wouldn't live in such a desolate place.<br />
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- We're going to take her home, now.<br />
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- Rachel must be out of her mind. How can she be calm right now, when we are trying to be calm and (so obviously) struggling to do so?<br />
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Alas, what I want to say to my father is: This is *reality* Greg! <br />
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I don't know how to communicate effectively my environment to people who haven't seen it without scaring them, or making them think I am disillusioned in any way, or making them think I have missed some fundamental part of the human experience by being here. This blog is helping me navigate those waters, but it is far from the whole answer to how I will pass on what I have been a part of here.<br />
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Today, I want to emphasize one particular point:<br />
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<i><u>Kensington is part of the human experience.</u></i><br />
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Every day on my way to work, I walk past dozens of people. Real people, some of whom are addicted to illegal substances, some who are homeless, some who are single parents struggling to get by. Soon, I may be sharing my morning commute on the elevated train with students running late to school because they are the parent figure in their house, and sharing my evening commute with nurses who have spent the day caring for the sick and struggling. Each of the people I encounter is participating in the human experience. <br />
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Why then, is my father's human experience so radically different from the two men down the street, shooting up? I respond with a line from a sign that was on our back porch area last year in Camden, from Mother Teresa. "God does not create poverty. We do, because we do not share."<br />
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There are so many layers to reality. Kensington is only one of many of mine. I invite you to consider which realities are yours. How does living your human experience affect another's human experience, someone who you will never know? <br />
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Peace and all good,<br />
RachelRachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-42776434470420947822012-08-25T23:54:00.001-04:002012-08-25T23:54:31.404-04:00Learning to feed myself...<br />
“The only real stumbling block is fear of failure. In cooking you've got to have a what-the-hell attitude.”<br />
― Julia Child<br />
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Thanks, Julia! <br />
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I didn't mention much of this last year, but an important part of my time in Camden was learning how to cook. Alex humored my interest, and my anxiety, as well as she could, and at the end I knew how to make a couple of things. I don't know what it is about this year, but I do feel that I have a greater lease on life. I am excited to experiment in the kitchen.<br />
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I've always said, and I really do believe this, that if I had to be a vegetarian, I could do it. I don't have such a strong attachment to meat that I need to eat it all the time, but I do enjoy it and rely on it for some protein and vitamins.<br />
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One of my two housemates is a vegetarian, though, and that means that if I want to cook something that everyone can eat, I have to make it sans meat. <br />
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Two things have happened as a result of all of this. The first is that I crave meat, precisely because I am more conscious that I cannot always have it. Last year it was not as much of an issue. No one was opposed to eating meat, but we couldn't have meat and everything else that we wanted on our budget. Oh well. <br />
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The second, and far more interesting, thing is that I have been looking for recipes, because I am newly interested in this world of cooking. I was a bit startled to find just how much meat has embedded itself into the wealth of recipes that I encountered. It felt as though meat was everywhere, and it became a bit daunting to find anything that didn't have even chicken stock in it. Not too daunting, though. I have happily begun with a handful of recipes that are vegetarian, or would be with a vegetable stock substitution.<br />
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Now, while I have all of these wishy-washy positions on meat, they are not based on anything other than my own wants and needs, and not on any sort of larger awareness. Thus, I am going to spend some time this year learning about the larger picture - how does my own consumption influence the world? <br />
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Both the Sisters of St. Joseph and the Franciscans have a focus on the care for and integrity of creation. I don't know if, at the end of this year, I will want a black bean burger or a Kobe beef burger, but I do want to know more about what fulfilling each desire will mean. <br />
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And, on the more fun end, I am going to learn to cook things like lentils and dry beans and tofu, so how can it be bad?<br />
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Peace and all good,<br />Rachel<br />
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-40943072870702318112012-08-18T22:30:00.000-04:002012-08-18T22:30:13.338-04:00It's foreign on this side...I have officially moved to the other side of the river (or at least I will have, tomorrow), from Camden to Philadelphia, and for all that I thought I knew about Kensington or Philadelphia, it's a whole other world.<br />
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My housemates and I got to walk around Kensington with one of the former Mission Corps Volunteers yesterday, and I was forced to look at the realities that I had managed to avoid. For all the time I had spent in Kensington, it is far more than Hagert Street, where the St. Francis Inn is located. It is Visitation Parish, the Cardinal Bevilacqua Center, Covenant House, Marianna Bracetti Academy, Fiore Pizza, the Catholic Worker, and even far more than this. It is people that I will come to know as beautiful, as my "dear neighbor," even though I am having a hard time seeing it that way now. <br />
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When we began our walk, I saw one of the guests of the Inn, Rambo, crossing the street ahead of us. I didn't think he would recognize me, but I stayed out of view in case he did. Rambo has a penchant for talking, and I didn't know how I would get around that if he started today. He didn't see me.<br />
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As we turned onto the block of the Inn, I encountered Danny, a longtime guest of the Inn, and an alcoholic who had relapsed. He has some sort of terminal illness, perhaps a consequence of his sorted past, I honestly don't know. All I knew was that he was drunk, and that despite every effort that had been made on the part of the Inn, he was still drinking. Whatever he has in this life, it's not enough to keep him sober. <br />
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That encounter snapped me back to the reality of what I do, and what I will do. I cannot save everyone in Kensington, or even everyone at the Welcome Center. The most likely scenario is that, on June 28th, when I am finished with my term of service, the people with whom I worked will still live in Kensington under the same circumstances in which I found them. It is a hard reality.<br />
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During our orientation, we talked a bit about the two feet of social justice: meeting immediate needs and working toward systemic change. If you don't meet the immediate needs of the people you work with, they will only be worse off. By the same token, if you don't work to change the systems that caused that need to exist, you enable a cycle of poverty to continue. It's not an either/or, but a both/and.<br />
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The students that I will be tutoring after school every day have the immediate need of homework help; they need to understand the work they are given and possess the tools to complete it. Their longer term need is to know English, which I will work to help them with as well. This need is at the interface of immediate and systemic. In addition to meeting those needs, I will also be learning about the systems that have created these needs. <br />
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Last spring, I had the opportunity to lobby in DC, to use the force of my own power in that way. My skin color, my level of education, my background will always give me a level of impact that Danny and Rambo will never have. Having spent some time last year, and anticipating spending more time this year, in the service of immediate needs, I hope to be able to learn about and do more to influence systems. Whether that means going back to DC, pursuing graduate school as a way to leverage my knowledge and understanding, or continuing to accompany the people I have come and am coming to love, I know that this year will be an awfully big adventure. <br />
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I'm slightly terrified of all of this, in the best of ways, and I am trying to remind myself that there was a beginning to my time in Camden, too. Say what you will, but Kensington looks rougher than Cramer Hill ever did, although there are not as many abandoned buildings, I suppose. <br />
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So, I guess I just ask for your prayers as I embark on this next journey, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support that has gotten me here. I am infinitely blessed to have crossed paths with all of you, whoever you are. <br />
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Thus continues the story of one girl who has a whole lot of love to give and a whole lot of living left to do...<br />
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Peace and all good,<br />
Rachel<br />
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<br />Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-72172745139487988392012-07-30T13:18:00.003-04:002012-07-30T13:18:42.462-04:00simple living, revisited.Packing is about my least favorite thing to do. I have too much stuff, and I can't fathom getting rid of it, except by waving a magic wand and having it all go away. That's the thing: if it were easy, I would very soon have much less in my possession, but as it were, that technology does not exist yet. So, here I am.<div>
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The pack-rat gene runs on my mother's side of the family, compounded by my own inordinate sentiment toward material things, whether they be clothes or books or knick-knacks. This is how, in my twenty three years on this planet, I have filled my bedroom brimming with clothes, toys, CDs, books and other things. Especially books.</div>
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An avid reader dwells beneath my nerdy exterior, and I have amassed hundreds of books in my lifetime. I have so many books that I have never read, let alone opened, because I cannot read them quite as fast as I acquire them. A side effect of growing up, I suppose. </div>
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Many people have suggested to me that I should get a Kindle, or a Nook, and I politely explain that the real book lover in me will die hard. I love pages, and words, and I am not ready to abandon convention for convenience. </div>
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I do admit a problem: simple living, as I am making best attempts at, involves fewer books than I have. I began this process last summer when I sold back a vast number of my science books. Now, I am forced to take a critical look at what I have, and say, truthfully, do I need all of these books?</div>
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The answer, of course, I already know: absolutely not.</div>
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As I move toward this next year of service, I continue to reflect on the role of "things" in my life, and I am starting by getting rid of a few more books. =)</div>
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Peace and all good,<br />Rachel</div>
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Frugality is one of the most beautiful and joyful words in the English language, and yet one that we are culturally cut off from understanding and enjoying. The consumption society has made us feel that happiness lies in having things, and has failed to teach us the happiness of not having things. </div>
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<br /></div>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-50996735528062732542012-07-20T20:06:00.002-04:002012-07-20T20:07:00.014-04:00...searching for starfish: the next chapter...Hello World!<br />
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I know it's been a long time since you last heard from me, and I will try to be as concise as possible. A lot has been going on here in Camden, both great and terrible, and I am leaving the place that I love and have learned to call home in just a few short days. <br />
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Along the way, I have been talking with God, sometimes arguing with God. He seems to want for my life something different than what I'd envisioned, which was staying another year in Camden. What I've discovered, though, is that when he wants something for me, he'll make it happen, and if I want it, too, then he will really make it happen. So it was with my next step: on August 13th, I will be moving to Kensington, Philadelphia, to teach English as a second language with the Sisters of St. Joseph. I will be living in community, similar to what I do now, with two other women, who will each be working in schools affiliated with the Sisters of St. Joseph. I will be in a program called the SSJ Mission Corps (here's their website: <a href="http://www.ssjmissioncorps.org/">http://www.ssjmissioncorps.org/</a>). <br />
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What does this mean? It means that I will get to work with fabulous people, again, and that I will also be able to have some contact with the people I have grown to love here. I am very excited at the prospect of having my own classes to teach, and I will get to share this year with two wonderful women, who will make up the rest of my community. <br />
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What does this not mean? I am not entering a community, that is to say, I am not becoming a Sister by being a part of this program. I have the highest respect for all of these women, but right now, I am not ready to be one of them. <br />
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I'm hopeful, excited, grateful to Colleen, the program director for SSJMC, and very much looking forward to what I know will be a year of incredible beauty and growth. I am so blessed, beyond all comprehension, to have the opportunity to do this. <br />
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For those who are looking for more Camden stories, I will do my best to post some, and also to be better in the months to come. I thank you all for reading and following my story. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. <br />
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Peace and all good,<br />
RachelRachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06315857582997964803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6056542696098293685.post-36388154659033732432012-05-22T22:00:00.001-04:002012-05-22T22:00:26.094-04:00Thy Kingdom ComeOne of my goals this year has been to learn Spanish, and one of the first ways that I did that was by learning the "Padre nuestro," the "Our Father."<br />
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It was the first thing that I memorized in Spanish, and I practiced it faithfully for a while, and then I got distracted, with my work, with the Hail Mary, with community living, with things going on outside of Camden. <br />
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Recently, when I have said the "Padre nuestro" at the May Rosaries, or at Spanish mass, I tend to forget, "venga a nosotros tu reino." Which means, "thy Kingdom come." <br />
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The Kingdom is coming. <br />
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It is quite fitting that that line is the one I often omit, accidentally, of course, because it's a difficult one to live, here in Camden.<br />
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The Kingdom is coming.<br />
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What I envision as the Kingdom, what you envision as the Kingdom, is nothing compared to the Kingdom that is coming. It won't be built of stone, or cement, or wood, or steel. It will be built of real people, connected by real love. We're building it now, here in Camden, and other people in other places all over the world are working to build the Kingdom, simply by loving and caring for each other. And it could be finished right now, under two conditions: that all people realize that we are called simply to love and to be responsible to one another, and then to actually do that. <br />
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It's easy to despair here, where so much is run down, littered, graffiti-ed. It's easy to despair when there is so much violence and drug use. It's easy to despair when there is so little money, and everything is only getting more expensive. But the Kingdom is coming.<br />
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When I interviewed for my second year with Katie Sullivan, she drove me home, and as we traveled down River Road, I squealed and told her to make the first left that she could. I wanted to take her a different way to my house, via Harrison Street.<br />
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Harrison Street, at the beginning of the year, had potholes feet wide and several inches deep, from heavy trucks constantly making use of it. <br />
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About six weeks ago, it finally got paved. It went from being the one of the worst streets in Camden to being one of the best. <br />
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This year has become about finding my hope, about seeing the abundant good amid the chaos. It continues to bend me into shape, so that I am better able to love all those around me.<br />
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Thy Kingdom come.<br />
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Peace and all good,<br />
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